Thursday, September 4, 2008

The guilt of being a mother!!!


So Grace went to the Doctors today. It turns out that the appointment that they had for her today (couldn't be changed) was at 10;20...that is right in the middle of my class. SO, my aunt Kim ended taking her. I was so worried about sending her to the doctor with out ME! I spent all moring writing a note to the doctor telling her that it was ok to send Grace with my Aunt Kim, THEN I printed directions, and told me Aunt Kim everything I do when I take her to the doctor. Grace is terrified of her doctor. She is an African American woman with a thick Colombia accent...Grace HATES her. I think it is because she doesn't associate with many African Americans...I need to get out more. So I us ally sit on the table with her because it helps her not to freak out. Anyways...I was worried! But I talked myself though it "no Jami, you shouldn't be worrying..she is just going to take her in, explain that she is still having problems with her ears, and then she will get a new prescription."
Well I get back from class, and Kim is just getting home from the Doctors (that means she was there for a long time). So I asked, how did it go....I almost died when she told me everything...
So Doctor Cabey came in and looked in her ears and said that she still has a really bad double ear infection, and that she wanted to get some AB in her system RIGHT AWAY. SO...what do they do...give her a shot!!! I guess that AB shots are really painful, so they put numbing stuff in there. BUT the shot itself is really painful. My aunt Kim was crying, and so was Grace (can you only imagine...my aunt Kim is a saint!!!) THEN they have to monitor Grace for the next 30 mins to see if she has a reaction to the shot. So my poor Aunt Kim has to sit in the Hot (yes the office is hot), ugly office for 30 mins (she is really a saint). Then Doctor Cabey tells her that she wants to refer us to a ear nose and throat specialist, because Grace needs tubes!!!
Can you believe that. I mean I don't mind the tubes, but I just wish that I was there to ask questions, and stuff like that. I am just feeling so guilty.
So I have to call the specialist and make the appointment. Hopefully she can get in before winter, and get it over with. I just feel so bad for her, because she is in pain, and cranky. She doesn't want to eat, and she can't sleep very good. Oh my poor baby. I guess we will just go and get some more Motrin!!!

6 comments:

Jo Dee said...

what I don't understand is why they dont give babies better drugs for an ear infection. Have you ever had one? It hurts like a mother!!!! If I could I would drug my baby up. (of course only if it was medically safe) Good Luck!

Brittany said...

Oh, poor Grace! I hope you can get in ASAP to the ear, nose & throat doc. And Jami, don't feel guilty. You are doing your best. Stop beating yourself up about it!!

Chris & Jennie said...

Oh, poor Grace. I'm sorry. I had tubes forever and ever growing up; and today I still go to the ENT to figure out all my lam-o ear infections and allergies...ugh! But, you're a great Mom! Good luck with it all!

Geevz said...

How awful! Give Aunt Kim a hug for me. I don't know her, but if I did, I would give her a hug and name a day of the week after her.

Danielle said...

Poor, poor Grace! I hope she gets feeling better soon!

Catherine said...

so, thye are going to put tubes in? I am so sorry that Grace has to go through this. I hope the shot worked like a charm!