This next semester I am starting my Chemistry class ( for the second time...but that isn't important). I am feeling really overwhelmed. I am TERRIBLE at chemistry, to say the least.
As a matter of fact I am not so good at science/math PERIOD. But if I want to be a nurse (which I really really do) I have to take it. I SHOULD have taken it in high school when it was A. FREE and B. A LOT easier!
It's not just school that is making me feel overwhelmed...but most everything in my life. Now, before I start my soap box, I have to let you all know that I am not fishing here. Now that we have that out of the way...
Lately I have just been feeling OVERWHELMED. With being a mom, with doing my church calling, with keeping my house clean, with cooking dinner, trying to remember to read my scripture (and then after remembering ACTUALLY DOING it), remembering to pray...remembering to pray for people that need help!! THEN on top of that I feel like I have come to a point in my life where I am realizing ALL of my weaknesses. Seriously, this is wonderful, but also VERY daunting. I feel like in order to succeed in life I have to fix ALL of my problems at once. I know this is crazy, and that it is wrong...but I can't help but think about everything I need to fix. I want to be PERFECT...don't we all???
But I know that I am crazy...and that I must take a step back, and look at the things I need to work on that are the MOST important right now.
Since I started doing that I have been feeling A LOT better about, not only myself..but about life. I have been LOVING life. I have to self talk all day. I say things like "you are capable!" Instead of telling myself all of the things I do wrong, I have started telling myself "you are capable!"
It is amazing!
Another thing that has helped me LOVE life is telling myself "everyone is just doing their best...just like me!" Before I was critical of others...and that made me feel guilty! It was terrible for my self esteem, and it was terrible for me to judge. Now that I have realized that everyone is just trying like myself...I just feel like a weight has been lifted off of myself....does that make ANY sense?
So this next semester instead of telling myself "you aren't good at Chemistry". I am going to say "you are capable, you are just trying your best!"
Do I sound like a motivational speaker? Well I hope so...I hope you all think I am a little cheesier than before this post!
On a side note...my FREE washer/dryer turned out to NOT WORK. Well they kinda worked, except they didn't get things CLEAN. SO I just got "almost" new ones. I LOVE THEM. They get everything SO clean, and they are so much BETTER. I still love my old ones...but I just love the new ones MORE!
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ah! Chemistry. I hate that class. But I've taken it so if you need any help let me know! I'm a nursing major. And you ARE capable of doing anything!! We all have the capability to do whatever we want if we just try our hardest & put our mind to it! Good Luck!
General chemistry or organic chemistry?
If its General, then Kristina has a funny story about that, but I have to leave it to her to tell. :)
Anyway, yay for working washers/dryers and yay for taking life by the horns!
Jami Sounds to me like your gaining the life experiences you need to become a better person. Sometimes if you look at events in your life as learning experiences its easier to sit back and enjoy it. Oh and figure out what its suppose to teach you so you never have to experience it again. By the way I think you will make an awesome nurse someday!
Good luck in Chemistry! I will pray for you...I know if I took chemistry, I would need LOTS AND LOTS of prayers haha!
I have been feeling pretty overwhelmed lately, so this post helped me alot. Thanks! Love ya!
I loved this post! Thank you so much for reminding of things that are too easy to forget.
Oh yeah, I have a chemistry story. I barely survived my first semester. I HAD to do better second semester to get into pharmacy school. I STOPPED studying on Sunday, and started being really good about studying every other day (meaning I studied daily). I prayed a lot and upped the dedication. I had the highest grade in my college class (>200 people) second semester. I really understood it too. Changing my approach made such a huge difference.
You ARE capable. It's good advice. I'm glad you're keeping a positive outlook.
Hey, you dont know me but you should totally read "Toss the Guilt and Catch the Joy" by Merilee Boyack. It's AMAZING. It puts everything into perspective, or at least it did for me.. She is very blunt and that's exactly what I needed. I am not the best house keeper or cook, but it's OK. It used to really bog me down - you sound incredibly positive but when you arent in that mode, read this book.. you can find it at Deseret. Happy reading!
What a great idea! I always think of all the things I should be doing and am not doing and get overwhelmed. So I usually don't do any of them because I don't know where to start. I think I'll have to adopt your strategy.
I know how you feel Jami! Sometimes life is just overwhelming and I think I'm the only one that is struggling. Thanks for letting me know I'm not and giving some good motivation! (and don't feel bad, I had to retake chemistry a couple times)
Ya, I didn't actually have take chemistry twice, but that is only because I took geology instead of retaking chemistry :P No need to go through that torture twice :P But good for you. I loved your post and your whole attitude. Way to be :)
Hey Jami - You probably don't even remember me but I am Tricia (Hobbs) Folsom and I know your Mom and all the Deering's well. I found your blog from Whitney's.
Anyway - I just wanted to say that I can't even imagine trying to go to school and be a wife and mother so I think you are pretty amazing to be doing all that! School is stressful and with so many other things taking up time in your life I am always impressed with young mothers who also fit in their schooling! So just do your best and if your house gets a little messy, don't stress it - as you said, you are doing your best!
You go girl! I love your new outlook! I also am noticing improved writing skills. Nice!
Dude. I'm teaching chemistry. It is so lame. Biology is sooooo much better. But, you ARE capable! Call me if you need ANY help. I can make it really simple. Unless it is O-chem and then just pray.
Hey Jami, I'm not sure if you remember me from high school..?
Anyways, I've been loving reading your blog. Its funny to hear you say some of the things you do, especially when it comes to like self-esteem stuff, b/c I remember when I'd see you in high school and think, "she's such a cute girl, I wish I was as cute as her."
I just wanted to say that I've found that when Heavenly Father blesses us with opportunities that bring joy such as overcoming obstacles (like self-esteem issues) Or accomplishing goals (especially challenging ones such as doing schooling for nursing, while having a little one and husband to be there for!!) Satan will weasel in the back door and try to batter us back down, to try and make us believe that we aren't as great as Heavenly Father knows we are. I think that is so awesome that you are being so positive and remembering to cheer for yourself, that can be one of the hardest things to do, to believe in ourselves when the bad guy out there doesn't want us too. Especially don't forget that we can also pray if we start to doubt ourselves. There now we are both cheesy motivational speakers ;)
I know I have to give myself pep talks all day long to get through this scary world! I remember the Wright House days and you told me you did not want to go to school, you just wanted to be a mom! Look at YOU. just one capable woman, who is doing more than your best! You are amazing, dont be hard on yourself, your doing everything right, we get many blessings for trying! The rewards will come, pretty soon you will look back and say I DID IT! Your great, love ya
Hey hon. I know life gets overwhelming. There are things I detest doing but know I have to do them (i.e. unloading the dish washer, washing the shower, figuring out what I want to do with my life...) But we just have to live day to day, knowing that we are who we are and are perfect as us. The fact that you want to be better proves that you are already better. You know what you want, and like it or not, you will accomplish it. You don't seem like a girl who lets a dumb little class get the better of you. I have faith in you. And obviously so do a lot of other people. Go and conquer!
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