I am a sucker for irresponsible decisions!

So a little over a year ago Spencer got a sudden urge to get a dog. Not just any dog..but the hugest, most fluffy black haired dog EVER! Spencer has an obsession with Newfoundlands. If you haven't heard of the dog, don't worry, a lot of people haven't heard of them. They are great dogs. The are HUGE (like mastiff size), but covered with long black fuzzy hair. They LOVE water, they are used to rescue people in water. The love kids, and are really good with them. They are GREAT family dogs. But I just wasn't really ready to get a dog. But that didn't stop Spencer from looking on AZ central, to see if anyone was selling them. Well naturally there weren't people breeding these dogs in mesa AZ. It is bloody hot, and well big black hair dogs tend to get REALLY hot in this hell hole (just kidding, it is getting good again, I will stop complaining). BUT, Spencers prayers were answered, and someone was trying really hard to get rid of her 12 week old puppies. Spencer talked me into driving out there to "just look at them" (he was just curious what a newfie puppy looked like). Well they were HUGE, but I did kinda like this one. She was the runt, and she came right up to me. We stayed for just a sec, and then left. The lady called Spencer, to see if we were interested, and Spencer gave her a LOW BALL offer for one of the puppies...she accepted! OH, what was I thinking? I said yes, but only if he got the runt...Spencer didn't want to get her AT ALL. He is a believer in not getting the runt...but I said the only way I would let him get one, he would have to get her!
Well one day he came home with her. I fell in love with her instantly. I named her Bella. Me and her became fast friends. I loved her, and she loved me. We would go on walks, and I would make her eggs for breakfast, and put ice in her water. We would go swimming, and she would swim right by me. She would cuddle with me, and make me feel safe at night. Well needless to say, I had Grace about 6 months after getting her. I didn't have time for her anymore, and I was overwhelmed with trying to figure out how to take care of Grace. Bella had to go outside, and I would cry everyday about it. I would put Grace to sleep, and me and Bella would go on walks, and I would go outside and play with her, and cry the whole time. I missed her. But I loved Grace WAY more.
Well Spencer had to quit his job, and it became apparent that we couldn't' afford Grace AND Bella. So we found a great home for her. I MEAN GREAT! She is probably much happier. But needless...I cried for weeks.
Spencer brought me a dog, and I loved her with all my heart, and then I had to get rid of her.
Well he is on to getting another dog! Another Newfie. What am I going to do. He talks about this dog all the time. I can't help but want another one. BUT we are still poor, we still can't afford one, and I still have Grace. Now Grace loves dogs, and I would love to get her one...But I would love to get her a lot of things. That doesn't mean that I debit card will let me!
I am such a sucker for irresponsible decisions! Please, if you see me, remind me that I can't let Spencer talk me into getting this dog! By way, this turned into a really long post, and now I miss my dog again. GOSH!