You know you life is boring when....

So I officially know that I am a loser! I kinda thought I was one when I had Grace and got completely and totally rapped up in Gray Anatomy. I mean I would literally sit in a chair all day long (and all night) and nurse Grace, and watch episode after episode of Grays! I would have Spencer rent me the seasons, and then I would just watch DVD after DVD. I watched the whole 3 seasons in less than a month! I would just sit there and cry, and laugh. The worst part of it all is that when I wasn't watching it I would think "I wonder what Issy will do?"...or "aren't Meridith and Mcdreamy so cute together". I even went though a time when I thought I would name my next girl Meridith! What was I think...did I think I was going to birht a 90 year old? Anyways. I thought I was over my TVland addictions. Then I starting this season of the Bachelorette.
All week long I would wait in anticipation for this show. On Sundays I would think "only one more day". If for some reason I was not able to watch one week I would wait for it to go on www.abc.com, and then watch it. I seriously would analyze every week. I would lay in bed for hours after the show and think about it! THEN, I waited all season for the finale, and she choose JESS!!! Dont' get me wrong, he was one of my favs, but COME ON!!!! It was MORE THEN FAKE!!!! I thought Jason was kinda cheesy, and it did bug me that his son "is the most important person in his life", but yet he was able to leave him for 6+ weeks? I mean I can barely leave Grace for 2 hours...you can't tell me that someone can be that important, and then you leave him for a GAME SHOW!!!! That bugged...but he was better than JESS! I have just been thinking about it since the showing last night. I can't get it out of my head!
So the moral of this story is that I am complete and totally retared, and that I need help. Or more realistically I need to get a life! Also a side note. I have had two very sad moments in the last month that have lead me to believe that I need to diet, and start to shower again. The first goes like this...I am having a high school friend of mine do my cabinets. He is an attractive guy. He look better than he did in High School (did I mention that I hate people that look better now than ever). We were going over what I wanted, and got talking about friends. I dont' know how it got brought up, but he kinda insinuated that I have "let myself go"! JURK! How dare him, Grace had the stomach flu that week, and I have a combined sleep average of 4 hours. THEN, on 4th of July, I went to my friends house to watch the show. I saw this other guy from high school. He TOO looked better than ever (JURK), I was saying hi, and introducing him to my husband, and daughter. He then asks "so are you pregnant again?" This is what I was thinking "no you idiot, I am not pregnant, I am just fat, and haven't had enough motivation to diet and excises to lose the weight that I put on while bringing a precious life into this world"! I did not however say that out loud. I said "is that a fat joke"...and then stared him down. So I now know that I am addicted to TV, and like to live my life in Reality TV. AND I look pregnant, and have "let myself go". SO when people from high school run into me, they aren't thinking "wow, I hate her...she looks better than ever". They are thinking "wow, she really has gained weight, and needs a shower!"
I am now making a new effort to get a life, and to be more presenable to society!